水曜日, 7月 27, 2005
My little ironic daily life
Just received an email that my next trip's gonna be in Palo Alto in Sta. Clara county. That's something unexpected.
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I've accidentally discovered one bad persona of someone whom I was considering to date. Good thing discovery came in early, otherwise I might have to put up with a lousy drunk. Oh well, so much for my renewed spirit for dating.
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I just wanted to have a decent English social conversation. It turned out hours and hours of serious deliberation over work. Oh-oh serious stuff. Serious Japanese.
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Completely forgotten about the AC Update. As in! But what do you know, my user actually did the planning job for me. Tsk tsk, Emy you're losing it.
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Had chit-chat with this cleaning lady. She mistook me for a Chinese. When I corrected her, she just went 'it's very expensive to live alone here in Tokyo. You should live with someone for economic reasons.' Time-out! Stop! Where did that come from?!
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Has been seriously contemplating on a major major career shift. I had lunch with a fellow colleague today, and she actually urged me to take the vacant manager's post. Whew! Hold on, I thought I just made my point clear!
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I was just reading Our Daily Bread and I chanced upon this question "How much does God control"? A question I have been asking myself for a while now.
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And in the same article, a paradoxical truth "Most human suffering is the result of wrong choices made by people who could have done better".
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But isn't it that we make choices based on the context of where He put us into? Had we not been pushed by 'fate' to be where we are now, then we wouldn't have made decisions that put us into jeopardy and caused so much suffering, right?
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And considering that He has an ultimate plan for us, it means He really wanted us to be where we are now, and He really wanted us to make choices, this door or the other. Yeah, ok, so He gave us free will.
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But if He really did, then why does He give this impression that He oftentimes interfere? Like those 'chances' he gives us, thru and thru, and what would the word 'serendipity' for if not for the pleasure of Him seeing His plan come into places.
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Why does He do that? There are some things that I will never understand.
# posted by Unknown : 9:40 午後
月曜日, 7月 25, 2005
Been hit by a very strong earth quake while at the office last Saturday. Was pretty scary.
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Things getting complicated at CRM. Am beginning to realize that doing a global project is a NO "NO SWEAT" stuff. No wonder we live in a chaotic world!
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Feeling the weight of so much work at my local office. Why do I have to bear all responsibilities? Is this fair?
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Yukiko's last week this week. It's always never easy to say goodbye...
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I was drowsing on and off to sleep yesterday, as if my world belongs to the dreamworld. I didn't have the strength to stand up for more than 5 minutes and I couldn't stop myself from falling asleep. Physical and mental fatigue is catching up on me.
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Re-arranged my house. Surprisingly my house been brighter and more homey. I'm seriously thinking of transferring to a bigger one, but what for?
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Am thinking of going to natsu matsuri, should I be wearing my yukata? But I'm just too tired and besides I've done this last year. If I've not been traveling, I should have joined summer camp, but then again, I always loved to travel.
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I should really be going to New Zealand for my summer vacation. What's been stopping me? Work schedule? But work's gonna be work, and there will always be something to do. I should go, really. I need to.
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Watched Bruce Almighty. Must confess this was the first Jim Carrey movie I actually like. There are lessons to learn there. Wish I could be as lucky as Bruce to have a personal experience of learning it.
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I'm taking a 2-day off which leaves me 3 work days to finish all my stuff before I fly again. It's not exactly off from work, just an interim solution to stressful situations. I'd take every opportunity to be away from the office. I just need to recup and find that inner motivation to face all these daily stresses. I could really be crazy sometimes...
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Ken gave me a very valuable piece of advise. That I shouldn't treat my life as a project, and that no execution plan will ever be useful for my life. Because life has to be lived day by day.
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"If God didn’t have a purpose for us, we wouldn’t be here. "
# posted by Unknown : 9:42 午前
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