金曜日, 5月 06, 2005
Em's simple guide to being independent
1. Identify to whom and with what are you dependent on.
2. Ask yourself why?
3. Can you do it alone?
4. Are you willing to go out of your comfort zone? If yes, read on, else forget about it.
5. Ask yourself again to double-check your will power.
6. If you're gonna do it, go to next step, else forget about it.
7. Cut your line of contact.
8. Be firm.
9. Do it. Do it again. Do it again. Remember practice makes perfect.
10. Don't look back.
2. Ask yourself why?
3. Can you do it alone?
4. Are you willing to go out of your comfort zone? If yes, read on, else forget about it.
5. Ask yourself again to double-check your will power.
6. If you're gonna do it, go to next step, else forget about it.
7. Cut your line of contact.
8. Be firm.
9. Do it. Do it again. Do it again. Remember practice makes perfect.
10. Don't look back.
# posted by Unknown : 8:47 午後
Chill! Balance it out, girl~
It seems like our 59 version could be the first real triumph for the team. I’ve personally navigated through the portal and for the first time I didn’t encounter a showstopper. Great leap indeed. Of course, there are still problems present first but we’re getting there. I don’t want to leave the team hanging or feeling lost or struggling after all, come what may, this project is my baby. As for my other projects, it is holiday for them, anyway it’s GW. But back to G1G3 again starting tomorrow and I need to immediately plan the socialization activities. When can I possibly take a breather? When I look at G1G3 sched, R0 stretches until July. And I need to furnish my house when I come back in Tokyo. After that I need to change visas. Next thing I know, summer’s passed me by. Tough life huh?! Well, at least I have a very promising career, good pay, hardworking and smart members, a healthy body, friends, HB and opportunities to go out and discover the world. If I could only squeeze little time to take food for the soul, what could possibly go wrong? Balance! This is what I need.
# posted by Unknown : 4:27 午後
木曜日, 5月 05, 2005
Spark
Is there such a thing or this is just a word invented by sentimentalists? This long and endless debate that is fast-becoming a fave topic for mini-reunion dinners with my old friends always seems to somehow manage and inject itself in a middle of any kind of conversation. [Mind you these old friends are those types of buddies that I can classify as brainy, career-oriented, successful and modern day bachelors and bachelorettes (if there is such a word)]. Aris, as our other friend Mel coined as someone with ‘identity crisis’ [read: moral inclination is still undetermined toss up between conservative or liberatedJ] said there is no such thing as spark. It is just an illusion; something that a romantic makes up in his mind.
Hmm…I disagree. Let’s put it into scientific context. Spark is generated by a friction caused by two identities. Now, If you get what I mean, how could there be friction if there is no contact? Isn’t it that spark appears due to the heat that collides between these two identities? And for spark to happen, both should have produced enough heat for spark to be visible, but if one is cold, rubbing and keeping these two bodies together in constant contact to warm each other would eventually produce spark. Relating to real-life scenarios and relationships, spark is something that strikes both people, brought about by contact, whether it’s by chance or regular contact with each other, say a chance to exchange hellos, or smile at each other in recognition or in some cases circumstances and events that brings you closer together could produce spark. Newton (or is it really him???) said that the distance between two points is infinite, thus there could be no instance when two points would be completely drawn close to each other to become one, because there is always an infinite gap in between. Again, translating into real-life scenarios and relationships, I agree. Couples have two different mindsets, different sets of values, different people. And because of these differences there is no way that any couple would be completely ‘owned’ by each other. There will always be a void somewhere. But what spark does is it bridges the void by producing something in the air. Something that is recognizable, something that is tangible to bring this two separate bodies together closer and recognize each other. But the fate of spark is directly proportional to the amount of effort these two separate identities exert to keep the spark going and chances are it could turn into flame or could just as well fade away.
As for sparks being a bi-product of an imagination of a hopeless romantic mind…..would you expect a deaf to differentiate Mozart’s from Eminem’s? And how can we even imagine sparks with different other people when we are busy making time to get to know this person, and keep in contact with this person. Let’s face it, our human bodies are not built for multi-tasking. Our body parts are designed to harmoniously co-exist not to multi-task. Literally speaking, how can we exert the same effort to start a spark with someone while we’re on another project, an ongoing spark? One has to subside, and one has to flourish, that’s the way it is, unless you’re probably Superman. But isn’t it that even Superman has only one flame, Louis Lane?
Spark is something you feel. It is recognition of that ‘chance’ to get to know a person better. Not expecting anything and not trying too hard. It is the mere appreciation that you met an interesting person, who could probably be your lover or your best friend or who could be just a fly-by, but just as well warms your heart for reasons that are very much uncertain about and frankly don’t care think of. It is acknowledging that special feeling towards a person without even knowing it. It is fate’s way of tapping your shoulders to look back at this wonderful boy who might be just the right person for you, not because he’s perfect but because he can make you feel perfect, no matter how imperfect the realities of the world is. Spark is God’s way of letting the greatest and most touching love stories begin, only if we are brave enough to recognize it.
I am neither a master of sparks nor a master of relationships but I fully believe in spark, in fate and in serendipity. And as I come to think about it, I somehow got a clear answer why HB and I are not really been doing well lately. In the beginning there was no expectation it was purely enjoying ourselves and unknowingly cultivating that spark into flame. Clearly the spark was so undeniable that before we even know it, it’s already burning. But it was obvious and then everybody started raising their expectations. It’s a lot of pressure so overwhelming and emotionally exhausting. And then consciousness started to play its part. And we had to be careful to subside the flame. Maybe we’re taking this too fast…we both thought. And for the first time, we had to be rational. But when we got in that state, we were already so at ease with each other, and we knew deep in our hearts that we couldn’t afford to lose each other, thus a sense of security.
Rationality + Sense Of Security = Mediocrity {whose lower bound is undervalue and upper bound is frustration}.
The two greatest loko-loko in the world started thinking straight and the world turned all hell. It pays to be crazy sometimes.
Hmm…I disagree. Let’s put it into scientific context. Spark is generated by a friction caused by two identities. Now, If you get what I mean, how could there be friction if there is no contact? Isn’t it that spark appears due to the heat that collides between these two identities? And for spark to happen, both should have produced enough heat for spark to be visible, but if one is cold, rubbing and keeping these two bodies together in constant contact to warm each other would eventually produce spark. Relating to real-life scenarios and relationships, spark is something that strikes both people, brought about by contact, whether it’s by chance or regular contact with each other, say a chance to exchange hellos, or smile at each other in recognition or in some cases circumstances and events that brings you closer together could produce spark. Newton (or is it really him???) said that the distance between two points is infinite, thus there could be no instance when two points would be completely drawn close to each other to become one, because there is always an infinite gap in between. Again, translating into real-life scenarios and relationships, I agree. Couples have two different mindsets, different sets of values, different people. And because of these differences there is no way that any couple would be completely ‘owned’ by each other. There will always be a void somewhere. But what spark does is it bridges the void by producing something in the air. Something that is recognizable, something that is tangible to bring this two separate bodies together closer and recognize each other. But the fate of spark is directly proportional to the amount of effort these two separate identities exert to keep the spark going and chances are it could turn into flame or could just as well fade away.
As for sparks being a bi-product of an imagination of a hopeless romantic mind…..would you expect a deaf to differentiate Mozart’s from Eminem’s? And how can we even imagine sparks with different other people when we are busy making time to get to know this person, and keep in contact with this person. Let’s face it, our human bodies are not built for multi-tasking. Our body parts are designed to harmoniously co-exist not to multi-task. Literally speaking, how can we exert the same effort to start a spark with someone while we’re on another project, an ongoing spark? One has to subside, and one has to flourish, that’s the way it is, unless you’re probably Superman. But isn’t it that even Superman has only one flame, Louis Lane?
Spark is something you feel. It is recognition of that ‘chance’ to get to know a person better. Not expecting anything and not trying too hard. It is the mere appreciation that you met an interesting person, who could probably be your lover or your best friend or who could be just a fly-by, but just as well warms your heart for reasons that are very much uncertain about and frankly don’t care think of. It is acknowledging that special feeling towards a person without even knowing it. It is fate’s way of tapping your shoulders to look back at this wonderful boy who might be just the right person for you, not because he’s perfect but because he can make you feel perfect, no matter how imperfect the realities of the world is. Spark is God’s way of letting the greatest and most touching love stories begin, only if we are brave enough to recognize it.
I am neither a master of sparks nor a master of relationships but I fully believe in spark, in fate and in serendipity. And as I come to think about it, I somehow got a clear answer why HB and I are not really been doing well lately. In the beginning there was no expectation it was purely enjoying ourselves and unknowingly cultivating that spark into flame. Clearly the spark was so undeniable that before we even know it, it’s already burning. But it was obvious and then everybody started raising their expectations. It’s a lot of pressure so overwhelming and emotionally exhausting. And then consciousness started to play its part. And we had to be careful to subside the flame. Maybe we’re taking this too fast…we both thought. And for the first time, we had to be rational. But when we got in that state, we were already so at ease with each other, and we knew deep in our hearts that we couldn’t afford to lose each other, thus a sense of security.
Rationality + Sense Of Security = Mediocrity {whose lower bound is undervalue and upper bound is frustration}.
The two greatest loko-loko in the world started thinking straight and the world turned all hell. It pays to be crazy sometimes.
# posted by Unknown : 3:16 午後
火曜日, 5月 03, 2005
Where are we going wrong?
More than the project itself, I have been really thinking hard about this team. What can we do to improve ourselves? How can we make our practices more efficient? What is wrong with the way things are done? What is the matter?
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What is wrong with me? What is wrong with us? Some days are just so good that turning back is not an option. Some days are just so bad that you even question why are you even taking pains just to keep this going...Truly, we are the world's greatest loko-loko.
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I wish tonight's dreams would give me clues....
# posted by Unknown : 8:02 午後
日曜日, 5月 01, 2005
The English Garden Gate
Peace comes from living in the moment and looking for the good in others.
Peacefulness comes from facing our fears and letting them go - trusting that things will turn out all right. Peacefulness is also a way of approaching conflict with others so no one is made wrong. Everyone wins because we then work to find a peaceful solution.
Peacefulness comes from facing our fears and letting them go - trusting that things will turn out all right. Peacefulness is also a way of approaching conflict with others so no one is made wrong. Everyone wins because we then work to find a peaceful solution.
# posted by Unknown : 3:59 午後
English Garden Cathedral
Be happy in the moment - that's enough.
Each moment is all we need - not more. - Mother Teresa
Each moment is all we need - not more. - Mother Teresa
# posted by Unknown : 3:54 午後
One Of King Ludwig I's Castles
It isn't the experience of today that drives men mad. It is the remorse for something that happened yesterday, and the dread of what tomorrow may bring. - Robert Jones Burdette
# posted by Unknown : 3:53 午後
Munich Spring Flowers
Peacefulness is an inner sense of calm - it comes from becoming still - in order to reflect and meditate on our inner wisdom and receive answers. A
peaceful heart is one that is free from worry and trouble. It's becoming quiet so we can look at things quietly so we can more clearly understand them and thus come up with creative solutions. It is learning to live in the present.
peaceful heart is one that is free from worry and trouble. It's becoming quiet so we can look at things quietly so we can more clearly understand them and thus come up with creative solutions. It is learning to live in the present.
# posted by Unknown : 3:51 午後
Beauty behind history
"I have learnt to love you late, Beauty at once so ancient and so new!"
# posted by Unknown : 3:49 午後
Doors Of the Past
Munich offers hundreds of doors to view the past, it's failures, it's glorious days and the marks it left behind in the pages of our history.
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"We know the truth, not only by the reason, but by the heart." -Blaise Pascal, Pensées
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"We know the truth, not only by the reason, but by the heart." -Blaise Pascal, Pensées
# posted by Unknown : 3:45 午後
The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams. ~ Eleanor Roosevelt
# posted by Unknown : 3:37 午後
Reflect upon your present blessings - of which every man has many - not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some. - Charles Dickens
# posted by Unknown : 3:31 午後
Imagine all the people living life in peace. You may say I'm a dreamer, but
I'm not the only one. I hope someday you'll join us, and the world will live
as one. ~ John Lennon
I'm not the only one. I hope someday you'll join us, and the world will live
as one. ~ John Lennon
# posted by Unknown : 3:24 午後
Only when the clamor of the outside world is silenced will you be able to hear the deeper vibration.
# posted by Unknown : 3:14 午後
One of the greatest moments in anybody's developing experience is when he no longer tries to hide from himself but determines to get acquainted with himself as he really is.
# posted by Unknown : 3:11 午後
Thanks for visiting!