土曜日, 10月 07, 2006
My typical day job is to socialize with all these people. Some people think it's cool, I think it's interesting, challenging and intoxicating at times. But I choose to be everybody's wind beneath their wings, I guess I like playing it that way. I don't need to get all the attention, a strange thing to say for someone who's always been under 'scrutiny' and 'limelight'. I am no celebrity but people love talking about me. My fashion, my career, my lovelife. Should I be flattered? To a certain extent I am but I'd rather be invisible. I'd rather wear a mask than expose my deepest feelings to everyone. I believe it's what they call self-preservation. I'm now struggling against depression. After tomorrow's biz trip, I will be taking the rest of October off, I need time away for myself. HB is hanging in there with me. We also have our problems to deal with. I feel guilty giving him all these worries but he wouldn't allow me to feel that way, we share the burdens together. I'm praying to God that we overcome all these trials and I've been praying for peace. HB has been very patient with me. He's always worried about me. We've talked things through and he supports my plan to resign. He knows that my physical and mental health is at stake.
I met with my agent today and he's told me about the BMW offer. It's a little bit more than what I receive now plus a BMW to drive. Quite exciting huh! But the offer is 1M short of my asking, so I told my agent Mark that I don't want to negotiate. He'll work this one out as I fly to the US. I guess it's good new, then...
Who knows what lies at the end of the rainbow but first things first. We have to move on, no matter how difficult the days are, to get to the end. But angels do really come to our rescue. Mark has been my newest angel, he's a nice person and I guess I'm lucky that the first agent I spent time on is with him. I'm not sure about the BMW offer, it's actually in Chiba. So I'm on the let's wait and see mode.
# posted by Unknown : 4:38 午後
JP-UAG Get Together
Yet another farewell party for a dear friend, a colleague, a very amusing pal and a good member of my CRM 'children'. Tito is leaving us in pursuit of a much more greener pasture. Last night was our little party for him. All 6 of us have been working together for the past 1 1/2 years and I have fondly refer to them as my 'children'. Funny thing was, Matsuhashi called me on the phone while I was having a meeting with HB. HB said it was strange to hear me talk in Japanese. About 5 minutes after that Matsuhashi just crashed our meeting and sketched where the party's gonna be. HB must have been so surprised and I was so ashamed.
He heard where we're going and looked it up in the internet, and then commented 'I know the place'. It was an awkward comment and I was compelled to ask 'Would you like to come?'. He said no (what a relief!). These are life's surprises. You'll really never know what happens next - whose lives you're gonna touch and who would carve influences in yours. I guess I am lucky to have found these people who have given me memories that I would always cherish in my heart.
The best of luck to you Tito!!!!
ラベル: party
# posted by Unknown : 11:25 午前
金曜日, 10月 06, 2006
Something To Laugh About
I believe Taiwanese are just as crazy as Pinoys! This is probably brought by the fact that Philippines and Taiwan are geographically close.These people just looooovvvveeeee talking! They look like they love fun. But, I bet they're not as fun as Pinoys!
Speaking of which, I was going through the very long list of unread personal mails and this forwarded one from Doc Lito about Pinoy Quips and these are the ones that really made me laugh!
"Guys, let's call it tonight!" "When it rains, it's four." "Thanks God!" "Burn the bridge when you get there." "Are you joking my leg?" "It's not my problem anymore, it's your problem anymore." "Well well well. Look do we have here!" "Been there, been that."
I've written nothing but compliants about the tradgedies of my life lately and I really feel ashamed. But really, there's still so much to laugh and be thankful about like today's beautiful weather, brief chats with friends, freebies I get from biztrips which includes traveling, souvenir pictures, extra holidays. Most of all HB.
# posted by Unknown : 3:52 午後
水曜日, 10月 04, 2006
いろいろ
Mizu-san have said goodbye to our company. We're not really that close but we're working on the same project and saying goodbye is never an easy thing for me personally. So today, I've got this gloomy air all over my face.
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Should I meet Yetyet and Lou in San Francisco on Sunday? I'm actually tired but the other 50% of me is nagging me to spend socialization time with friends and acquaintances for I'm not always given the opportunity to do so.
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When I'm angry, I can't hide it. I'm just the "what you see is what you get" type of gal.
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I'm tired questioning.
I'm tiredfighting.
I'm tired trying. I'm tired ignoring.
I'm simple tired.
# posted by Unknown : 2:45 午後
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