金曜日, 10月 07, 2005
New creed
The beauty of each morning is that you wake up to the same hour each day, from the same bed, in the same room and yet when you open your eyes each shade of light is never the same. Yesterday was all bright and sunny, today is a little cold with the morning dews all over my window, makes me wanna tuck myself in my bed the whole day. But what will tomorrow be? Will it rain? Will it be humid? Will it be cloudy? Or windy?
You brush your teeth, boil water and make coffee, watch the morning news, take a shower, fix yourself, get a hold of that key and then you go off to work. Some days are just terrific you can't hardly wait to greet the world, good morning! You smile to everyone and no one in particular. There are those days that you drag yourself out, hoping and wishing that the day will be over. But in any case, I always give that one final look at the mirror and smile at myself and say 'good morning beautiful!'.
A well conceived project plan doesn't mean it's smooth sailing all the way. Like what happened tonight, I was all set to close one project and off I go to London tomorrow noon. Turned out that my TW support couldn't be reached and tomorrow might just be a toss up. So instead of doing my laundry, cleaning my house and doing some last minute preparations, I am here in front of my PC like a sitting duck. Life can sometimes be simply a pain in the ass.
On the other hand, I was losing hope that I could get my Amex card before this trip and I was ready to stash out all my cash. But great Customer Service girl who really tried hard to have that card land in my hands. And it did!
This past week, I admitted that I'm so stressed out. I'm burning out. I can't sleep. I feel pathetic. I feel cheated. Life seems to be unfair. It's a brave thing to say, especially from me.
But still I feel grateful for having the chance to see the world. Things will be in their proper perspective soon, I just have to believe. I don't want to be control freak anymore. I don't wanna be the team's worrier. I don't wanna be the smartest girl in town. I don't wanna be the martyr. I don't wanna be the good girl anymore. I wanna be freer, I wanna be more spontaneous, I wanna laugh more again. I don't wanna deny that I'm gorgeous as they say, hahahaha.
Bottomline is I'm 29 and it's about time I enjoy the ride.
A Cup of Coffee
A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old University ofNotre Dame. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life. Offering his guests coffee, the lecturer went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, some plain-looking and some expensive and exquisite,telling them to help themselves to hot coffee. When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the lecturer said: "If you noticed, all the nice-looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is but normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the better cups and are eyeing each other'scups.""Now, if Life is coffee, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just toolsto hold and contain Life, but the quality of Lifedoesn't change.""Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee in it."
火曜日, 10月 04, 2005
Rest! Be gone soon.
My mind's already on vacation mode. Can't wait to throw my work stresses away! Europe here I come again, embrace me in your arms! Welcome me back, indulge me!
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Norla, Emman and Roland are planning to visit me in Tokyo. Geez, that's something I truly look forward to. Though it could slightly cut my European vacation to 4 days I am so excited to see familiar faces of friends. Too bad I wouldn't be able to catch Doc Lito in Yokohama, or would I? If it's Thursday then I probably could!
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Our new manager showed up yesterday. He obviously had a big mouth! I hope his brains especially his guts are even bigger.
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Indeed Mr Greenboy is transferring to another dept. Think about it, he could probably be one of my BOOs?
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Need to start planning for R1.J soon. Tomorrow, I shall purely devote my time to my regional scope. I know I know, first things first. Time out to refresh an intoxicated Emzi! hahahhaa.
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I figured out HB is too happy lately. I hate it 'coz I feel the exact opposite. My stomach turns upside down everytime I hear his thundrous laughs. The eekie sound of his voice crawls like caterpillar under my skin, gross! Makes me wanna vomit!!! I wanna drastically escape. I wanna run like hell as far away. It's so nauseating. Maybe it's just me and my pathetic emotional imbalance but the point is.... there is no point!
I know I know! I'm a freak! hahahaha. [oopppsss.....my true color's coming out!] I really need detox.
"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
--Jessica - age 8
Thank Goodness For Technology!
Had a good chance to chat all day! Yup yup. It's a rare opportunity but I'll take it any time. Been so lazy today and I couldn't get myself to start the week right, thus I decided to drop by a few lines to my friends and walla! the day has been chats, with Sherille, mostly about work. With Blesh, about almost everything. Jason gave me a few laughs. Hearty chitchats with Gail and Marla and Patrick and Raffel and Leah and Emi. Meaningless, nonesense, senseless stuffs. But for a slightly bored and homesick me, this would have been my day's survival kit. Caught Mike with exchanges of hi's. And Seint as well.
Tonette and Uriel dropped a couple of messages in my blog. Ahh, the joy of friends.
FRIENDS ~
As we walk our path of life,
We meet people everyday.
Most are simply met by chance.
But, some are sent our way.
These become special friends
These become special friends
Whose bond we can't explain;
The ones who understand us
And share our joy and pain.
Their love contains no boundaries.
So, even we are apart.
Their presence enhances us
With a warmth felt in the heart.
This love becomes a passageway,
When even the miles disappear.
And so, these friends,
God sends our way,
Remain forever near.
日曜日, 10月 02, 2005
The Weekend's Highs
This is probably the first time I felt that my weekend was not enough. I spent almost the whole Saturday sleeping. The past two weeks have been so physically exhausting. Work is still toxic. The week has been a mixture of ups and downs, as usual. And I needed to change my cube again. I don't know what's with seat re-arrangement. Dashed to Windsor Racket to buy my first tennis rackets. Prends4ever has a tennis bout hehehe...It was somewhere in Akabane, Tokyo. It was a great place. The park was just so perfect. Although my tennis was so terrible. Dinner at Mc Do. Didn't join the inuman session 'coz I still have tons of housekeeping to do. After arriving home, I started my laundry and finished at about 12mn.
Sunday, my body started to ache. Went on to clean my bathroom and kitchen. It's already 9pm and I still haven't gotten thru my living room. Did some catch up on my pilates and some scrapbooking. I'm rewarding myself with steak tonight (of course, self- prepared), a long-deserved hot tub soak and hopefully finish tidying up my living room. Thinking about doing some work before I go to bed, but nahh...Work would have to wait until tomorrow.
Next weekend I'll be off again on another biz trip to Ireland, then finally my postponed vacation. I'm really so excited about this whole vacation thing.
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The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart - Hellen Keller.
Akabane - A New Discovery. Jeff, Otep, Ray and I had tennis here. The park was so beautiful, with a wide lake, serene environment, relaxing atmosphere. My cellphone failed to give justice to the true beauty of this place, but I will come back again and sit down on the benches under the generous shades of trees. I didn't know there was such a place in Tokyo...and I'm glad to have found this.


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