金曜日, 10月 07, 2005
New creed
The beauty of each morning is that you wake up to the same hour each day, from the same bed, in the same room and yet when you open your eyes each shade of light is never the same. Yesterday was all bright and sunny, today is a little cold with the morning dews all over my window, makes me wanna tuck myself in my bed the whole day. But what will tomorrow be? Will it rain? Will it be humid? Will it be cloudy? Or windy?
You brush your teeth, boil water and make coffee, watch the morning news, take a shower, fix yourself, get a hold of that key and then you go off to work. Some days are just terrific you can't hardly wait to greet the world, good morning! You smile to everyone and no one in particular. There are those days that you drag yourself out, hoping and wishing that the day will be over. But in any case, I always give that one final look at the mirror and smile at myself and say 'good morning beautiful!'.
A well conceived project plan doesn't mean it's smooth sailing all the way. Like what happened tonight, I was all set to close one project and off I go to London tomorrow noon. Turned out that my TW support couldn't be reached and tomorrow might just be a toss up. So instead of doing my laundry, cleaning my house and doing some last minute preparations, I am here in front of my PC like a sitting duck. Life can sometimes be simply a pain in the ass.
On the other hand, I was losing hope that I could get my Amex card before this trip and I was ready to stash out all my cash. But great Customer Service girl who really tried hard to have that card land in my hands. And it did!
This past week, I admitted that I'm so stressed out. I'm burning out. I can't sleep. I feel pathetic. I feel cheated. Life seems to be unfair. It's a brave thing to say, especially from me.
But still I feel grateful for having the chance to see the world. Things will be in their proper perspective soon, I just have to believe. I don't want to be control freak anymore. I don't wanna be the team's worrier. I don't wanna be the smartest girl in town. I don't wanna be the martyr. I don't wanna be the good girl anymore. I wanna be freer, I wanna be more spontaneous, I wanna laugh more again. I don't wanna deny that I'm gorgeous as they say, hahahaha.
Bottomline is I'm 29 and it's about time I enjoy the ride.
# posted by Unknown : 11:24 午後
Thanks for visiting!