火曜日, 5月 24, 2005
I am home
I am back home. It feels great to be back home. It's funny 'coz I felt so nervous about coming back to Japan. I had butterflies in my stomach, I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep and my hands were so cold. Will they still like me? Will they still remember me? So much has changed over the month, and I don't know what these changes are. I feel so left behind. But as if God has heard the fast beating of my heart, the most amazing thing happened. When I arrived at the office, HB opened the door, said 'okaeri' and took me to my new cube. Now I'm beginning to believe that he's really bound to be my guardian angel. There's a lot of new faces, but the old faces, they're still there alright!
This month-long journey took me to places I've never been, showed me new stuffs, opened new doors of career growth opportunities and best of all taught me valuable life lessons and restored my belief in the goodness of people and of the amazing things the world can offer us. Who would have thought that a 4-year old daughter of my friend whom I visited in LA could pop an innocent question that would make me re-think about my life.
"How old is your son?" Leila"Oh~ I don't have a son" me"What about your daughter?" Leila"I don't have children" me"Why?" Leila"'Coz I am not married" me"Why?""I don't know" me"You should marry soon" Leila"I don't have a boyfriend right now"
me"Why?" Leila"I...(at this point, I already don't know how to answer back..I don't know" me"Don't you want to get married?" Leila"(now I really don't know what to say...hmm...I don't know, maybe someday I will" me"It's lonely if you don't have someone to sleep with at night
and you don't have someone to talk to. Look at my Mommy and my Daddy, they're married and they're not lonely. And they have anak, that's me. If you don't get married, how can you have 'anak'?" Leila
Surely I changed the subject...hehehhe.
# posted by Unknown : 9:17 午前
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