火曜日, 5月 24, 2005
"What are you doing here? We don't need you"
Couple of months ago I was appalled at the treatment of a resource manager to one of my team's trainees. "What are you doing here? You're not included in my list of attendees" It was the most unprofessional thing that a person, worse, a manager, could say or do.
Just today, I heard the same lines only this time the players are different with the perpetrator this time was a JP colleague of mine, and me as the recipient of such insult. But instincts told me to keep my ground and act as professional as I could. I should brag that I didn't walk out nor did I fought back. Instead, I calmly stayed there and ignored the whole thing as if nothing happened and business, went on as usual. I passed the test with flying colors!
Yet deep inside I wanted to cry. HB told me not to mind her because everybody thinks she's crazy anyway if I allowed myself to get affected, I will just be a plain loko-loko. I said I know that but it hurts anyway. He gave me a piece of paper with her name written on it and he said I should squeeze it as hard as I can and imagine it is her. I not just squeezed it but crumpled and tore it into pieces while I and HB were talking. Inside my head, I was thinking that I shouldn't be rude to anybody, coz I don't want to be a cause of other people's emotional stresses.
While all of these were happening, one colleague of ours approached me and HB and said, 'you two have a strange relationship, you keep secrets between the two of you.'
I gave out an amazing response 'yes, we have a strange relationship and it's going to the trash together with this piece of paper which holds the secret to the truth about our relationship. '
What do you know, for the first time (although it's a little bit too late) I acknowledged the word 'relationship'. Although I was trying to be amusing to HB's friend, truth is, our relationship has already gone all the way to the garbgage. What we have now are remnants of where we began...and that is friendship, nothing more, nothing less. Just the way it works best for both of us.
# posted by Unknown : 11:19 午後
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