土曜日, 6月 10, 2006
Sometimes the worst thing that could happen to us opens the door for the best
that God wants to give us.I'd like to believe in His ultimate plan for me, but sometimes I get tired of waiting. I get tired of hoping that one day some of the things about my life would be different.
No, I don't hate my life. Why should I? It's a fab fab life. What more can I ask for? Sometimes I ask myself why should I always play the martyr, the understanding, the forgiving, the pillar, the brains...I just want to be me. And what is that? Who is that?
I'd lie to myself if I say I'm not up for promotion. It's been two years and I haven't gotten promoted yet. They say never compare yourself with others, especially not your fate but I can't help but think that things are overly unfair. Why should I allow myself to be a corporate slave to areas out of my responsibility? Because I care too much. I want to get promoted. It's ashame to say it but don't I deserve one?
I need to decompress a little bit. I need to focus on something else. I don't have a life. I mean a real life.
I can't even find time to clean my own house.
I don't have motivation to go to the gym or go and play badminton. I'm getting fat!
I'm not with the man I love. Isn't it too sad.
I am looking for a purpose. I'm looking for reasons. I'm looking for the happiness that was, a good night's sleep and MP free of PMS.
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