火曜日, 10月 10, 2006
It dawned to me that I really look like total mess especially when the US immigration officer asked me yesterday if I were tired. After checking in, I looked at my mirror reflection and realized that I was being totally unfair to myself. I have not been taking care of myself, have not made any effort to even look presentable. Tsk tsk bad, bad!Things would probably not improve now and I'm gonna be stuck in this situation (and depression) for a while but I've gotta give myself a break. I then made a commitment to myself to smile a little, spend time with myself, go back and work out.
I cannot let all the bad vibes rule me. That's not the Emzi I know. How can I let all these silly circumstances defeat me. I don't have to look like a loser just because deep inside I'm struggling. After my 60-minute workout, I felt a little happier and a bit more alive. I've gotta lose some flabs here and there. I declared to myself. Today's work prevented me swimming time but I'll try to do some laps tomorrow morning. I still need to do tons of work but I have this detached feeling. I have sustain right now, it's an operations error. Strange that I feel really detached....Sure I'll do it, but....I guess I'm really ready to go.
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